-3OmRy-

-Broken-

2006-07-23T16:18:00.000+08:00

Just because my eyes do not tear does not mean my heart does not cry.

And just because I pretend to be strong

does not mean there's nothing wrong.

Often, I choose to pretend I'm happy

so I don't have to explain myself to people who would never understand.

Smiling has always been easier than explaining why I'm sad.

2006-03-10T19:10:00.000+08:00

To Him...

.Habeeto Beeny W Been Nefsy.
..W Ma'aolteloosh A'ally fi nefsy..
...Maa'rafshy Eeh Beye7saly Lama Bashoof 3eneeh...
.Maba2etsh 3arfa a2olo Eeh.
..Ma3rafshy Leeh Khabeet 3aleeh..
...Bad3af Awy Wana Ganbo We Basalem 3aleeh...

.kol 7ob el donia deya fi alby leek.
..danta aghla el nas 3alaya ro7y feek..
...danta law odam 3enaya ashta2 eleeeek...

.3ala baly.
..wala enta dary belly garaly..
...wel el layaly...
.seneen taweela sebtehaly.
..ya ensheghaly..
...be kol kelma 2oltahaly...

.el kalam law kan ye3abar 3an el 7anan.
..kont 2olt eny ba7ebak men zaman..
...kol youm el shoo2 beyelbar 3alaya baan...

2006-03-04T19:49:00.000+08:00

*ARGH*

Im Still Work..
My Head's Spinning~!
I Feel Like Banging My Head Against The Wall~! Help~!
It Hurts~
-Grrr..Still Gotta Wait For My Boss-

I Am At The Lowest Point In Life..
Yes..I Have Everything...
Having A Good Job..Good Pay..
Happy Family..
But Just Something In My Life Is Missing..
* I Miss Him *

'He' Called Last Night..Crying!
Its Funny How A Guy Would Weep But ..Gosh~!
Things Are Just Complicated Now..
His Mum Told Him TO Be Strong & She Supports Him In Everything HE Does
& Encourage Him To Get WHatever HE Wants..
But On The Other Side.... *Argh*

I Feel Like Giving Everything Up..
Im Lost~!

Aunt Called Today..
Granny's Missin' Me..
Better Visit That Poor Old Woman Soon.. *Wush*

I Need My Medicine~!!!

I Hate that SON OF A GUN~!
Hes A Pain In My Ass..
I Dont Wanna Rely On People Now..
Ive Got TO Stand Up For My Rights..~!

Oh What Else Am I thinking?

I Need A Breaaakkkkkkk~!

BAhamas Anyone? Hehe...

Peace..One Love...

2006-02-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

Heh. I Know I Havent Been Writing For Farrrr Toooo Loooong..
Been Busy And There Really Is Not Much To Say..
Basically Am Trying To Get Myself In School With No Money..
Then There's Me Being Bored To Death At Work With No Customers And Having To Work Till 7pm.. So Tired Sia...
But Oklah Uh.. Im Getting A Good Pay Now Since Ive Been Promoted
& A Franchise Of My Own~! (,") Alhamdullilah...
Fuck~!Cant Wait For My Next Pay...
Needs To Go Shopping Soooo badly...

I Need A HairCut Too...
I Wanna Cut Like Sherine (Above) & Highlight It To Red But Mmmm...
Someone's Not Keen About The Idea.. Argh~!

Anyways...
Im Missing U So Much..Yes U..Thats right..Ana Bahebak Ya Habibie~!

Ummm.. Gonna Tuck In.
Morning Glory Tomorrow~!
Damn~!
So Many Work~! Grrr...

*Dont Forget To Tag*

*Signing Off*

2006-02-19T19:04:00.000+08:00

I Swear I Could See Cobwebs Everywhere In Here..
Fuck~!
Its Been Such A Long Time Since I Last Updated This Stupid Shit.
As Usual, I'm Here To Ramble About My Life Yet Again.
Pretty Sure Its Getting Dull By The Minute.
But Guess Not As Long As Baby Is With Me Through My Ups & Downs Each Day.
Thanks For Being Patient & Understanding. *Moopsaaa*
Problems Are Not Going To Solve Themselves Out,You Jolly Well Know What I Mean. Crap~

haVe U Ever LiVed my LifE? sPeNt oNe MinuTe iN my ShOes?
iF u HavEnt,tHen Why u Judge mE as U do?

All These While, People Have Been Judgin' Me etc.
Until Recently, I Actually Gathered The Courage To Stand Up To Them And Turn The Tables Around.
Yes, They've Driven Me Nuts. And Finally... I've Had Enough. It's Very Frustrating To Have People Breathin' Down Ur Neck All The Time.
I'm Breaking Free From All The Weights That Have Been Pulling Me Down.
It's time for me now.
I Have To Be An Iron Like A Lion In A Zion~! :DD

***She's Flying Without Wings @ 7.17pm***

P.S: Thanks Shortie For This Adobe Pics..~! U Rock~!

2005-08-28T15:29:00.000+08:00

Love is...

1. Who's your love?
^_^..Amr Diab

2. Do you believe in the saying that goes "First love never dies"?
-It died for me though..'Kentang'..Rings a bell?

3. How do you know when it's really love?
-Its like Its been to long and im lost without him..What am i gonna do? Say ive been needing u ..Wanting U..When I feel Ive lost a part of Me?

4. Do you know when someone likes you?
-Maybe..Im a bit slow though..

5. Is love lie the second time around?
-I think Something is wrong somewhere here..

6. What' s your opinion about the saying LOVE IS BLIND?
-I think people who fall in love are the Blind ones.. hehe

Well yeah wHen ure madly in love..All bad points turned to be cute or sweet..

7. Will you do everything for the person you love?
-To a Certain Extent..Yeah!

8. Will you ever fall in love with your bestfriend?
-I wouldnt want to ruin our beautiful..sweet relationship/friendship

9. What's your type of girl/boy?
-Someone who has strong characters..Strong beliefs in His Religion..

Who can guide me through in Life..

10. Do you express your feelings openly?
-Sometimes..

11. What do you dislike in a girl/boy?
-Possesive..Violent..Cant respect a woman..

12. Who's your crush?
-I think the Question Should be Crushees :P

13. Do you have a bf/gf?
-For me to know..for u To find out!

14. Is it possible for you to fall in love with anolder man or woman?
-Been there Done that?

15. Eh younger?
-*Smiles*

16. Is it possible for you to fall in love withyour cousin?
-Muahahaha..Its either they are too old ; married or they're still peanuts

17. How hard is a break-up?
-If U know how to handle it..Its fine!

18. Are you a heartbreaker?
- Heartbreaker..I got the best of U..But u can just keep on coming back~

19. What do you do after a break?
-Go to the club and find for the next victim?? hehe

Or heAd down to Arab street tO smoke Sheesha!

20. Do you swear never to fall in love again?
-Yesh..Wanted to celebrate my singlehood again until someone inspired me to be better..challenge me for the better :)

21. What's the greatest lesson you've learned regarding love?
-The greatest thing u'll ever learn is to love....n be love....in return~(hollor n fall down the stage platform...).....haha...replica of Moulin Rouge..

22. Can you marry someone you don't love and hope that love will grow from that?
-Why not? Thats what my parents went through,baby!

23. What do you think of loving a person with different religion?
-Ill be honoured to make him convert to my religion.. at the same time, im doing a good deed,no? But i know its hard to maintain the relationship..There'll be so many obstacles..

24. What's your view about premarital sex?
-100% against it.. Those who think that thats a way to show ur love towards ur other half..URE DUMB!

25. Finish the sentence. Love is...
Love is ridiculously a heart-warming and heartbreaking essense of everyone's life...No one can say they ever lived if they have never been thru this stage....be it frenship love or family love or bgr...

Love is beautiful when u fall in with the right person (",)
+♥♥♥+

Sherine's

2005-08-21T14:53:00.001+08:00

*Ahlan Wa Sahlan People*

I am in the pink of health & Yeah Mums getting better..3lhamdullilah!

Yeh! Yeh! I am so Happy today! Finally,I received Sherine Wahab's Full Album..Thanks to the Egyptians Community in Efte..
Shukran..U Rock! *Smiles* (Im still waiting for Amr Diab's new album,boy!) *Winks*
Oh Boy! I am so in Love with Sherine's Album..Dope! She Pours her feelings,man~Like she put her Heart & Soul in it..Her tracks makes me wanna CRY..wanna SCREAM..wanna DANCE etc..Love it!
*Kont ba7ebak awyy ya 7abiby..Lama beteb3ed bastana2* (,")(",)

*Sigh* PDC again today..Didnt went home for lunch today..Instead I went Le Meridien Hotel..Chilled with Sis And made full use of her coupon! *Muahahaha..*

Hey,Thanks Haseenah for that site's link..[Gotterdammerung]!
Fat Ass..! He's such a pain in my ASS.. Sissy & Me really had a ball of time in his site..*Evil Laugh* Critisized him..Cursed him..Made Fun of him..Most of all Gave him a piece of mind..! Thank God we had so many supporters too! Hehe..I mean..look..U can talk about races..I dont give a shit BUT..Religion?? Damn it! Nothing U said can make me Untrue to my God..*Allahu Akhbar* I guess U gotta do lotsa homework before U say something,baby..!'Rodents' & Muslims are 2 different thing altogether..
Why Do u hate rodents(Malay) so much? Cause Ur momma left Ur Daddy for A Rodent? Cause Rodents dont have to pay their School fees?
Cause U cant fuck a Rodent? *Oh how Sad..*
Ure hoping to achieve the best blogger award by writing those craps?
-Look,I can go on now till tomorrow but I shant-
Whatever it is,I have to fight for my Religion rights!
Argh~

^Oh my!Wherever I go,I seem to smell Sheesha! HEEEELP!~ hehe^

*Signing Off*

Urban

2005-08-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

Your Fashion Style is Urban

You've got a style all your own... and it works
Not too trendy, not too freaky - you've got streetwear down to a science
You always look cute and put together, but keep it comfortable too
You're the type of girl that creates trends and inspires others to be funky

This is the kind of kisser i am? ahaXz

2005-08-07T13:51:00.000+08:00

You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

Lived My liFE?

2005-07-27T00:40:00.000+08:00

*gReetiNgs*

haVe U Ever LiVed my LifE? sPeNt oNe MinuTe iN my ShOes?
iF u HavEnt,tHen Why u Judge mE as U do?

aRgh~

iT aiNt a PhuCkEd uP dAy fOr sUre..iTs a sLAck oNe..*bLueRGh*

aTTendEd my seCoNd beLLydAnce cLasS aNd iT Was aiGht..wELL itS All aBt tHe isoLatiOns tODay wHiCh iM quiTe fAMiliar wiTh [tHaNks To rAnia] unLiKe tHOse 'ChiNa BuKits' whO had DifficultiEs..GRrrr..biSiNg siaAaa..

fiNaLLy, i Got tHe aNsWers tO my questiOns..aFTEr sO maNy MonThs..?? onLy caMe toDay??erRrmmm..bOy suRe iT MaKes mE feEl Like a wOMan..*ahaXz*
tHat exPlaiNs tHe acHes..the shOutiNgs..tHe bAd teMpeR..tHe diZziNess..cRAve fOr fOods & driNks..AaaaAaaaahhh...bUt i Hate iT! SuCh a nuiSance..bLuErGh!

aNywAys,YeSteRDay was a dAy tOtALLy gOne wROng..
wHy diD i Say tHOse things iM nOt suppose To haVe sAid? wHy diD i uSe tHe Wrong wOrdS? wHy wAs tHat subject brOught uP?
www.feelsoguilty.com -wHat haVe i Done?
kAyf mEnak..Kaf aALaYaa..yA habiBie hiSsibiYya..Mategra7nish..
aKtar miN kiddA..harAm..aALaiK kiDDa..(.")(",)
i FuCkiNg hate TO thiNk about iT aRghhHh..

i gUess iMma turn iN nOw..gOTta gO PDC la TomoRRow moRn..*yaWn*
**iM a biG biG girL in a biG big worLd..iTs nOt a biG biG thiNg..lalalala**

cAnt waiT tO cAtCh 'MANHUNT' ToniGht..

aiNt MaUriCe.T dAMn...

HOT! HOT! HOT!..? SEXY! SEXY! SEXY!..?

2005-07-24T16:44:00.000+08:00

How to make a fArishA

Ingredients:

1 part anger

1 part brilliance

5 parts joy

Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little lovability if desired!

2005-07-23T15:56:00.000+08:00

aiNt tHat ShiT abOve cooL?
GuEss there'S mORe aNger iN Me.. ahaxz..

*GReetiNgs*

hOpe EVeryOne iS iN tHe piNk oF heALth..

fiRstLy,i wOuLd LiKe To PRay fOr thE viCtiMs Of EgyPt bOmb bLast aNd My DeEpeSt SyMpaThy gOes tO tHe FamiLies ThAt Lost theiR loVEd oNes.. i feeL U,Man~ i aLMoSt LoSt a gOod fRiEnd Too bUt fortuNateLy, He Was baCk tHe niGht beFoRe..aLhamduLLiLah..

iM piSsed..i MeAn wHat riGhts DO they hAve TO aTTaCk iNnoCeNt peopLe tO mAke a poLiticaL poiNt! wHat tHeyre TryiNg tO AchieVe? aNywAys, hOpe eVEry1 i knOw iS sAFe..Be iT in EgyPt or LondOn..My tHOughts aRe wiTh tHose wHo did nOt surive aNd weRe aFFeCted by thiS aCt of .E.V.I.L.!.

wHats tHe worLd TurNing To?

i wAs in tHe bUs (iN tHe eVeNiNg)

tHe Day beFoRe..i cOuLdnt heLp iT but tO sTaRe at tHe mOOn..

bOy! Huge! iT Looked As if iTs goNNa TOuCh My heAd aNy mOmeNt..

(iF U knOw What i Mean...)

wiTh the siTuAtioNs oF tHe woRLd nOw.. bOy..i cAnt sTop woRryiNg..

iS the woRLd cOmiNg to aN End? (its oLd..)

-wArs..,riOts..,BomB bLasts..,tSuNami.. etc

- HIV SpreAding thrOuGh the woRLd fAster tHan wiLdfiRe..

-tHe aMounNt of illegitimate kiDs..??

-sOme sCieNtiSt diScoVeRed tHe 10th pLanet?? WTF..

to maKe matteR woRst, sOmebOdy had To Say somethiNg That ReALLy FrEAked me out..but oh wELL..LeAve it..!..

iMMa siGn oFf fOr nOw..

iLL uPdAte sOOn..

"Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery..None but ourselves can free our minds..Have no fear for atomic energy..'Cause none of them can stop the time..How long shall they kill our prophets..While we stand aside and look? Ooh!Some say it's just a part of it..

We've got to fulfil de book..(",) "

miC cheCk 1,2..1,2

2005-07-23T03:40:00.000+08:00

MiC cHeCk..1,2..1,2

oK fiRst BLog TriaL..tRy Je..

*uPdatiNg whiLe ListeNing tO
'CaTer 2 u - DestiNy's ChiLd'*
DOPe~!

fiNaLLy!~..

its nOt my fiRst bLog..bUt tHe veRy fiRst oNe i diD aLL bY myseLf withOut heLp..! beLieVe iT oR nOt..

*cRAcKed mY brAiN shiTy*

wELL..cAn nevEr dePenD on peopLe,u knOw..

tHats wHat iVe LeArnEd..

gUess goTTa wOrk haRd tO achieVe soMethiNg..

^tHaNks TO SaRoKh fOr teLLing Me thiS^

weLL..SatiSfactiOn gurAnteed ThOuGh fOr thiS simpLe bLog oF miNe..

iT might nOt be OutStaNdiNg oR shiT bUt i diD it wiTh my Own sWeAt..

*taPs My ShouLdEr* ~bRaVo~

i stoLe heRe anD theRe thOugH..ahaXz..~!

bUt whO cARes wHat nOw?

(beEn bLoggiNg iN 'spaCes' aLL thiS whiLe)

weLComE tO mY TrAgic kiNgDom aRh..sTEp iNto mY woRLd..
wHeRe thEre's countLess thiNgs to sEe..eNdLeSs poSsibiLitiEs..
LeT mE tAke yOu tO a pLaCe wHere deSiRes fLow dEep..
SEe aN odYsSey of dReaMs..AnD tHe bEst Of faNtaSies..
All tHis fOr yOur eYes oNly
OoH Uh-hUh yeAh aWww lala GRrrr... *YaWn*

-its beEn a HeCtiC WEek FOr mE..
-itS niCe tO bE baCK hOme at lAst..*miSsed Dad's cOokiNg*
-iM bOrEd oUtta My wiTs nOw..dAMmit~!
-My onLy 2 beStfrieNds nOt wiTh me.. [eNa's buSy wiTh pRoj & ahMed's Out oF TOWn]
**nO oNe TO leAn oN aNd diStuRb-chiLL wiTh-taLk sHit wiTh nOw..miSs hiM**
-aNeSHa's MaRried..hOw cooL is THat?..sO haPPy fOr hEr..
[iTs paRveeN's & hAjar's tuRn neXt FeW mONths..cANt beLieVe iT..sO eXciTEd fOr tHem.. yEs,OnLy fOr em'..]
-FeEl LiKe DAncing..rEaLlll bad..LooKiNg ForWaRd tO eVery TueSDaYsSs aNd 4th AuguSt.. wOohOo..I sMeLL buRbouN.. ahaXz..
-i wANNa gO oUt & chiLL!!.. tOwn? sHeeSha? bOwLing? aNyoNe?
-i nEEd rEst fOr nOw..
-FuCk,i HaTe U!!! ARrGHhhhh...~GrRrrrr...~